TEARS. ♥
The All-Time Half-Pai Half-Guai One.
Dreams.
Faith.Determination.Courage.
14.
7 Syawwal 1415.
Nineth March.
Raffles.
[312'10.]
RGAK'11.
Shoppaholic.
KPOP Addict.
[SS501.FT Island.]
Birthday Wants:D- A bigbigbigbig pooh bear.
- Make it my day. One and only. Special day.
- A hoodie. A big&nice&comfy one. A bright one.
- All three FT Island's albums.
- A great big hug.
- Time with my friends&family:D
Talk the Talk.
Ta's!
♥105'09&205'09
Aishah
Amalina
Amirah S.
Anabelle
Anqi
Arvin
Asyiqin
Athirah
Attiya
♥Caitlan
♥Celine
Chanel
Chloe
Claire
Dayana
♥Diyana
Edith
Eileen
Elizabeth
Elysia
Evangelyn
Farah
Farah
♥Fathanah
♥Fathin
Fauzan
Hadziqah
Heather
Isdiyanah
Jaslin
Jing Yi
Jing Yi
Jocelyn
Joeline
Kai En
Koh
Lee Chin
Li Ying
Mahisha
Marissa
Musique
Naqi
Priscilla
Pristine
Radiya
Regina
Rong Fang
Sabreena
Sarah
Sheryl
Shi Ying
SihSi
Su Lynn
Syafiqah
♥Tasha
ValTeo
Vivian
Wanyi
Xiaohan
Yanli
Yanti
♥Ying Yi
♥Zhuo Ning
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Tuesday, February 9, 2010,
INNOCENCE.
A thousand half loves must be forsaken, to take one whole heart home.
Sunday, February 7, 2010,
tomorrow is going to be an exciting day(:hopefully i'll get to take pics, then you'll know why!
:D but i don't think i'll get to.
it's too... i dunno):
I HOPE EVERYTHING WILL TURN OUT WELL TOMORROW,
CAUSE I DON'T WANNA BE EMO & MISS THE AWESOME OPPORTUNITY!
aww. but if i'm emo, MUAHAHAHA.
I STILL CANNOT SLEEP WELL AFTER MALAY THAT DAY!
HOW ANNOYING!
URGH. I SHOULD TOTALLY REFRAIN FROM WATCHING THIS KINDDA MOVIE/
LISTENING TO THIS KINDDA AUDIO.
URGH.
STRESS RELIEF! :D
This pics are in the wrong order. look at it from bottom up, not top down. HAHA:D
there'll be more to come once zn finds her cable! she better do it fast, cause facebook is waiting very impatiently. :D
TA's!
Friday, February 5, 2010,
i hate this. i hate you. no i don't.
How come,
no matter how many times i try to hint it to you,
YOU JUST DON'T GET IT?!
How come,
no matter how much i talk to you,
and try to mengeratkan silaturrahim,
YOU JUST DON'T GET THE POINT?!
WHY
WHY
WHY.
CAN'T YOU SENSE ME BEING SARCASTIC WHEN I SAY OKAY?
OR YES, SURE.
OR HAHA, YEAH.
CAN'T YOU HEAR THE SARCASM?
CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I HATE WANTING TO KNOW WHAT YOU'VE GOT TO SAY?
ABOUT ...
CAN'T YOU SEE?
OH MY GAWD.
ARE YOU SLOW OR SLOW?!
I'M SCREAMING IT IN YOUR FACE.
NOW.
READ IT, UNDERSTAND IT, AND DO IT!
DARN IT.
YOU AREN'T EVEN LISTENING WHEN I'M TALKING,
CAUSE YOU'RE SO OBSESSED!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010,
I'm so lucky no one reads my blog.
Cause then i can post my diary. HERE.
so if you are reading this, close it.
Delete it from your history.
Delete this website from your memory.
And act like this blog, never existed.
Hold my hand, and we'll run away together.
I hate this feeling.This feeling of loneliness.
It's like, 'Where do I belong?'
It's like, 'How come I don't fit in?'
It's when everyone around you is talking,
and you just cant seem to catch what they're talking about.
then 2 minutes later, you realise you're all alone.
It's when everyone just seems to be better,
It's when eveyone just seems to get more limelight,
even though we're all the same.
It feels not nice.
It feels, like, I'm a grass, on the ground,
and everyone is up on the tree.
It always happens.
Nowadays.
It's when everyone just dao's you,
Or treats you differently,
Cause you're not like them.
It feels like, a black being ostracized be whites.
But it's worse.
Cause, I'm a yellow.
Being ostracized by the whites, and the browns.
Sometimes, it just gets so bad,
You just wanna cry, you just wanna scream,
And disappear from the world.
But you know it'll never happen.
It's when you try to converse, but everytime you say something,
THAT face comes along. And looks at you wierdly.
Sometimes, i don't know if it's that cool being mixed.
Cause if the treatment I'm gonna get,
I don't think being mixed blood is that cool after all.
It's when, everyone seems to have a place in society,
When everyone seems to have an important part to play.
And I'm just, the girl next door.
Being me, i don't like to follow.
I like to lead.
But it's when no one cares whether or not you like it,
And puts you out of the picture,
In a split second.
It's when everyone is looking in one direction,
You turn away, and run away discreetly.
You start to tear, and before you know it, you're crying.
You hate yourself for being you,
You critisize yourself for being you,
You start to want to disappear.
You start to want to die, cause you know you can't disappear.
You start to think. Of bad and evil things.
That's when you feel that gross feeling,
That feeling of loneliness.
That feeling of sadness.
Cause you just cant' seem to talk about it.
Cause no one seems to be serious listening to you.
Cause you know you'll just have to cry before you sleep.
Everynight. Again and again.
Then live through it again and again.
Lonely.Cry.Lonely.Cry.Lonely.Cry.
Day.Night.Day.Night.Day.Night.
That's what just happens.
I hate it.
I simply hate it.
Sunday, January 31, 2010,
MR MIZAR IS GETTING MARRIED:D
This is bad. This is bad.
You know why?
Cause i have a lot of homework,
Which i totally don't feel like doing.
i keep listing them down, but i never get to work.
HOW FUN!:D
AHHHH.
and i wanna get sick. not fever.
just sore throat, runny nose, cough.
but somehow, even though i've not been sleeping& eating chocs&milo,
I'M NOT SICK! O.O
tmr is madrasah.
monday is chem.
tuesday is cca.
wednesday is birthday. NOT MINE>:(
thursday is cca.
friday is tuition.
saturday is wedding. NOT MINE>:(
sunday is madrasah.
the
i've got homework!
- Ucapan
- Math Asses 1,2,3. (i bet you never knew math had so many butts right! LOL, lame=.=)
- Chem Ws
- Bio Lab Report
- Annotate the effing 29page history notes
- Scientific something research [history]
- SS readings
- EL readings
- Jap かんじ
- CMPS
- TT Stuff
- Renaissance Period [AJ]
ALL BY MONDAY:D AWESOMEZXZ.
I want to say something.
I've got a secret.
But.
I can't say it.
I can't tell her.
I can't tell them.
I can't tell anyone.
Why.
'Cause I love you so.
I've got a present.
But.
I can't give it.
I can't give it to her.
I can't give it to them.
I can't give it to anyone
Why.
'Cause it's private like that.
Now I'll tell you my secret& give you my present.
When no one's looking.
Right now.
I love you. Mwah.
Byebye:D